Is this worth the wait?

Is this something that I can be certain of for once?

I'm hanging on a thin string of faith.

Why must my emotions get the better of me all the time?

Why do I lose out & give in & pretend that I'm okay?

I'm NOT okay. NOT AT ALL.

Why can't things be better after every tears?

Why can't things to be easy on me for once?

It's taking a toll on me!

I don't know what to do.

I don't want November to come.

What will happen to me?

Where do I go next?

Sigh................

I can't take this.......I.......need..........to.......fucking.........cry........out!

:'(