I have the tendency of waking up in the middle of the night or morning if you call it and it gets hard to sleep back. Make me sleep anyone? I always have a cup of hot delicious Milo throughout the night before doing something aimlessly like face-booking and you-tubing. Sad that my boyfriend is fast asleep or else I'll be whining at him to take me out on his ride for supper. Most probably I won't be heading down to supper or zouk this saturday cause the family will be having some praying ceremony for late grandpa.

I love my baby D to the fullest :)
Gonna plant 1001 kisses all over his face tomorrow.
Don't know why I miss him this bad suddenly.

I'm so to the max bloated with all the junk food i ate and now i feel like puking. Hate this feeling. So much of telling myself to go on a diet when the fact is i keep eating unnecessarily. Tsk. This, must stop. I've been getting rotten smelly grades for my Cognitive module. However I can't say I'm trying hard because apparently I'm always late for this class and I tend to have a real bad habit of leaving the class halfway when I think I can no longer take it. It is always the same old shit routine. You have to prove a shit stand with a valid shit evidences. I thought cognitive means higher thinking skills. Can't they be creative enough to think of something else?? Fuck that shit.

Somehow somewhat.. I could just feel something is holding me back. I'm clueless about what it is but I'm just afraid it might be something that I fear the most. I need to stop talking so i can hear myself better, what is it that I want and what is it that i need most in my life. Just what is it that is bothering me and puling me away.

I have no idea why but I tend to cry in my sleep. Bottling up is never a good thing to do but sometimes I'm left with no choice. Pardon me I'm just a girl and girls are rich with emotions.